Nothing much happened today except for the fact that my class had 2 free periods and also that we could go home early...and the chemistry test and the e.maths test was torturous...and we were supposed to write our target for e.maths over 20 and i put 12 because i was like crap...and i was having a running nose and a headache and a sorethroat and could not do the sums very well...

And then after school farah had her geography test and she was absent yesterday and nabilah had her npcc stuff...then talk talk with izzad, izzati, sinarti and benji at the central umbrella seats and we were talking about everything and stuffs...and then farah came and the rest went band except for benji who went home...then wait for nabilah and when she came at 4pm, they still take their own sweet time and we ended up going to tampines mall late...i bought kids plaster and disposable underwear and insect repellent and oreo cheesecake...saw rohaizad and his mom and his dad and then walk a bit saw farhana with her friends and then when we walked back to interchange, saw the 3 hai sing catholic girls and saw umairah when i was boarding the bus...called her but she did not hear me...

Then on the bus, me and nabilah and farah talked about everything that is going on in school...then we talked about a particular person in detail...how she joined this out***** club and how she has been sitting with the people that se was not familiar with and can see that she was not comfortable...then we were all talking and told farah to be aware of her surroundings more and just keep an eye on the things around her...nobody knows, anything can happen when an out***** sits around people...

And then there are people who erase everything somewhere and did something to the blog...don't want to let people see...erase all the pictures in friendster...WHATEVER...nobody cares coz you don't matter to the people around you anymore coz your memories with all of us have been erased...its like been deleted so too bad coz you have no people around you anymore...

SADISTIC
NARCISSITIC
F***ER

These are the sceneries from up the mountain...it is ver nice and peaceful and heavenly and you can just sit there and look around and not be bored...and this all happens because of plate movement a.k.a those who study geography can appreciate these landforms more...woohoo...

This is actually the road going up the mountain...you can see the fog there right...it feels like its and air-con room and it is so peaceful...

This pic is the picture of me and my older sister of 11 years...it was taken on a mountain top and it was so freezing cold and i had my teeths clenching all the time...the background is all clouds but there is on picture when there is very little clouds, you can see a meadow with cows and there is even a lake below...truly magnificent beauty of nature even though i hate my face in this picture...

I did not post for the past few days because i was so damnbusy studying for the geography test...actually, i am still quite busy right now because htere is chemistry and e.maths test tomorrow...and mr lai said those who failed the e.maths test will have to go for extra classes...i think i would have to do that...am pretty sure about that but let's just see...and the geography test suck coz i did not finish 1 question...ms lee came to class late as she was chatting with another teacher and that eats up into our test duration...bullshit...

And rules are meant to be broken, aren't they...well, yesterday we had assembly on chinese opera and after that there was public caning for the first time ever...and the teachers were all standing around the whole upper secondary students for dunno whatever reasons...well, i am so gonna debate about the caning because the caning seems like a stupid idea because mr chua have said time and time again that no violence should take place in the school..and he is contradicting whatever he said when he, as well as the whole school, watched the caning...its like using violence to resolve violence or using fire to put out fire...and that is thoroughly stupid...

The caning was kinda, to me, was being staged...the discipline master a.k.a mr tan was like doing so much action stuff as if he was gonna really hit really hard but in the end, it was just like a pathetic little show...you could hear that the cane went to the cushion that was placed above the buttocks and it was so not what i had expected a public caning to be...i wanted it to be more real and dramatic but who care, i was not the one up there...

I have been mugging the whole of yesterday to do notes for geography test...and worst of all, the test was crap...and there is chemistry test and e.maths tests tomorrow, back to back...and i got the results for my higher malay composition and i scored 52/70 and cikgu lin said that it was already very good...halo, it is only like 74.5% and that is not even an A1...halo, i need to get an a1 for my languages...and wei liang was very brave to scold ms yanti because she was late to see him for some debate stuff he wants to ask her...and the formation of the debate team have been changed...i will be 1st speaker and jessica is 2nd speaker and zansher a.k.a pig(its what the girls call him) will be like 3rd speaker...i am nervous about being 1st speaker because you have to speak twice...

And i got the camping stuff list already...i think i am gonna use the green volcom bag for the camp coz its the largest bag i have...i guess i will be going green for the camp coz i will also bring my green sleeping bag that has the army pattern...i am also bringing a green jacket, a green shorts and lots and lots of green stuff...and i do not need to buy a new jacket at G.A.P because my sister bought me a black jacket with green stuff on it and she sent it to me by mail already...yippee...i will be posting my holiday pictures bit by bit in the next few posts...and am so gonna study hard for sec 3...DUH...

Okay, since getting into sec 3, i have been really getting very stressed out over all of my studies...it is like the end of the world if i do not at least study 1 chapter or subject per day...and that is completely stressing me to the maximum already...and i have like made notes for every single subject there is and i am like so tired right now...

And i will be having a geography test on tuesday first thing in the morning a.k.a the first period...and then on wednesday, i will have chemistry test right after recess and then followed by e. maths test straightaway after that...and there will be 4 more tests scheduled the following week...and the reason there is no test on thursday and friday is because there will be a sec 3 camp in ubin(suck)...it was supposed to be at kota tinggi but because of the flood, it was changed...looking forward to the bonding of 3r3 even though ubin suck to the max...

And then to top all of this stressful life of mine, there will be the JULIET GABRIEL DEBATING CHAMPIONSHIP and i am like the first speaker...and i do not even know the motion yet...oh my god...and the competition is like on the 9th of february which is like 2 weeks away only...and i am still not that confident in speaking and debating in front of the audience who are also debaters so they will surely know what mistakes that you have made...and for the tests, i am not really confident about it coz simple, i am very negative about my grades...

And so here is the part i hate about school and all the shitty tests...all the tests and competitions are crammed up together in like 1 stressful week that if you are like already feeling down about your other test papers, it would affect all the other stuff as well...and so for those people who have been saying that sec 3 is an easy breeze, you are sorely mistaken...sec 3 is as stressfulas it gets and i don not know what sec 4 have in store for me...

Okay, i got up like so early in the morning coz i slept at about 6 pm yesterday evening because i was so tired and of course i did not want to listen to my father's lecture that i have heard a million times...and so i am like reading other people's blog and look at their pictures...and so on and so for...

Let's talk about yesterday then...it was like during malay lessons when i was doing the wb when cikgu lin came up to me and said "Asyraf, where did you learn to write like that...Your grasp of language was very good"...i was like oukay...it was just like an idea that came to my head...i need a perfect moment at the right time to do a composition piece that i am really proud of...i wrote that so called "good" composition in school an hour before higher malay lessons start after school...and it just clicked on me to use something that is happening around us...so i am glad i did that...i have tried to write the composition in the library 2 days before the date of submission but it was all not great to me...and i ended up wasting lots and lots of foolscap papers...and i am really nervous for compositions coz i do not really write that well in a stressful situation in the middle of the school hall with a time constraints and with teachers all around you seeing that you ar not looking at other people...it is like dumdass coz you cannot copy composition paper...only morons do that kind of stuff...

And speaking of exams, i have like 6 or 7 tests coming up in the course of the next 2 weeks...pure chemistry, pure biology, pure geography, a. maths, e.maths, social studies and elective history...and i guess i have to get at least A2's or B3's for all my tests and exams coz i really want to do really really well this year...and with that adious amigos...

Okay, i am like so sorry for not updating...so, for those of you who have been here, you guys are basically just reading past entries...and in reference to the title of this post, it may be true to a certain extent...i don't hate the world coz the world does not owe me...but i hate some of the people who is living on it that can be so damn selfish and so fucking arsehole...seriously, i am not joking...

I am like gonna make an oath that i will try to update my blog everyday...or at the most every other day...so blogging gives me a purpose to do at home...not that i have no other purpose but it is just to fill my time...and back again ti the topic, i guess shit happens amongst every single one of us...but i guess the most common conflict will have to between annoying family and some selfish friends...whatever so over it...bu i will never forget what had fucking happened...FULLSTOP...duh, how can you expect me to forget what happen...that is so fucking hell out the question...

And just to tell you, i don't need any more fucking help from you...yew, you...if you have a funny, sinking feeling that is inside you while reading this, it may jolly fucking hell be you...i don't need you to help me with these stuff anymore...i've learnt it without your help and just so you know, i did this on my own..."got to experiment stuff sometimes", as you have said before...(p.s, it is not grace or nabilah bcoz i have asked them for help and have helped me a bit but its not them)...so then, it must be you who is reading this...

So the bottomline for this entry is just to ran up about my bottled up feelings...So i am so giving a shout out...I AM BACK AND BETTER WITH OR WITHOUT YOUR HELP...

Okay, it has been a really long time since i last blogged...been on a holiday that i have thoroughly enjoyed but still, i need another holiday to rejuvinate me...it has been like a month since i last blogged so i guess that this blog could have been considered dead already...but now i am back and i am prepared to take on the new school term with a big bang...

So, people school has like already started and i am like so happy to wear long pants...and by the way, i got into 3r3 and it will be so much better than all the other classes because we have all the dynamics...so it will rawk, just like the good old times when i was still in 2r6...okay, i got mrs wee as my form teacher and she seems quite nice...then got cikgu julinda a.k.a cikgu lin who is my higher malay teacher...she seems very open minded and she seems to be very very nice and seems like the type of teacher that you could talk to...then got mr lim as my history teacher(again!)...but he's very nice so i am looking forward to his classes...got mrs teh as my chemistry teacher(hope she's okay)...got ms kumutha a.k.a ms kum as my biology teacher...she is very open minded so its quite nice since she's teaching bio and need to talk about stuff...got ms lee as geography teacher...i think she is fine...mr eric ong as p.e teacher...and last but not least mdm nura as my social studies teacher(yippee!)...she is very strict but i can understand what she is teaching and i got great results when she taught me history in sec 1...so that is like 2 years ago...

My class have air-con and i am still bragging about it to the others whose classes don't have aircon...it feels great to be in a priviliged class but i guess we have to work doubly hard to meet up with the standards...and i want to make sure that i will be studying every other day and not foll around...have got to do all of my homeworks if i wanna be able to achieve my desired results...i guess that's all for now and i will blog again tomorrow...i hope...