Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete


Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release


Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....


[Chorus]
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..


You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago


Ohh I'm free now and my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...


[Chorus]


I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....


LISTEN!!!...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete


Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my ownn...

I have been studying for not quite the whole day...and maybe i will continue to study till i am going to sleep coz there is nothing on television today that looks nice to watch...well, i was like watching veronica mars on television just now and i will officially anounce that it is probably one of my favourite televion shows on television right at this very moment...and i like the show's theme song...WE USED TO BE FRIENDS-THE DANDY WARHOLS...yes, that is the name of the song and i am not kidding...

How i wish school could be like those potrayed on veronica mars...woth all the lockers and our very own newspaper...well, i gues that that is actually a very wishful thinking on my part...schools in singapore will never be like that of america's...we will still forever be stuck in this junk or should i say structured education system...and i am getting sick of it...and we even have to pay for the lockers...i thought they are supposed to come for free and we could decorate it however might we wish...and i thought lockers are supposed to be individual...

Gosh, there will be so many tests packed on monday and tuesday...there will be higher malay, chemistry, biology, pure geography, social studies and english...luckily elective history has been canceled and have been brought forward to next term...and sorry to najam and farhan for not going to the study group yesterday coz i really had to do my homework using my laptop...even though i can bring my laptop along, but still, it is kinda difficult...

And i have 1 very good news...my sister will get a permanent residency in australia and she will not be coming back to singapore when her university education is over at the end of this year...that just comes to show that i may be able to visit her again this year...and maybe i can go there for my holidays every other year...yippee...and she can send me all those stuff by mail...i love her presents...muahaha...okay then byebye...

I got back at around 1.30 pm and no one was home...now this what i like...like it when i am alone...but then i am really hungry now leh...maybe i will fry some fries and nuggets...no other choice then...but i still love eating junk food...it's so good it's a sin...or should it be...it's so bad it's an indulgence...

And so school was nothing much...mrs wee did not come for the third consecutive day...so we had a relieve teacher who came to class 40 mins late...such a muddle-headed teacher...higher malay lesson was cut short because we had temperature taking exercise that lasted for 30 mins...then english was at computer lab but everyone was doing their own stufff...e.maths was just fine...cme was supposed to do NE message thing but i did my social studies instead...

Been on my laptop for over 3 hours already...was watching youtube and stuffs...eating apple coz damn hungry...damn sleepy also...lots of tests coming up...can die of mental blockage...and its all squeezed into 2 days...so what the fuck...

Happy Birthday to GRACE...actually its belated coz her birthday was yesterday...wah, someone turns 15 already...me, farah, nabilah and izzati shared money to buy grace's present...quite expensive you know...then i think farihin gave grace mnm chocolate and magic cards...

Went to Benjamin's blog during english class...and he have not updated it for over a year...wah, so lazy pig...no offense...then during recess, i dropped the plate i was carrying...luckily it was when we want to send it back to collecting bins...lucky chan kai was with me or i will be embarrased...-.-///

Today has been quite an eventful day...had lots of fun during every single class today...higher malay was nothing much...did the wb...then social studies with mdm nora was cool coz she talked about her parents and the teachers...she's so lovable...then had a.maths but mrs wee was not around...another day of agony in waiting before i get back the a.maths test which i am sure i'll fail...english was duh uh...and chemistry was so fun sitting in front...angeline was like making lots and lots of comments...like mrs teh is shrinking...muahahaha....

After school went to tampines mall with farah as nabilah had lessons...bought grace's birthday present and farah bought a small white pouch...then went to famous amos to buy 2 cupcakes that cost $2.40 each...then went to popular to get circle template and a file...then farah bought strawberry shortcake's foolscap pad coz it was cute...i agree with her...strawberry shortcake is so adorable...took a taxi back to school but it was so late and so expensive...usually it is $3 something but it cost $6.20 just now coz there was a traffic jam at tampines mall...urghh...

Reached school and shared the cupcake with nabilah and took 291 to interchange after that...then on the bus saw an east spring lower sec boy having the same wallet as me...oh my god...reached home before my mom and took a shower...then a guy from starhub called about some kind of promotion...i was like i'll think about that later...

And my laptop can listen to songs already...i hope it will be ok...or else my mom will kill me...my laptop is just 8 months old...and you can visit me at my grave if my laptop suddenly spoil...later so troublesome and my mom would nag at me...aites now, i got to go...need to type the proposal for the cme makan trail...bye...

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting


I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying


I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should


I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it


I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over


I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should


I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should


Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

Woke up early today coz cannot sleep well last night...kept sneezing and sneezing...and finally i get to blog since my mother went to work already...i like it when she goes to work...watched the encore of grammy's yesterday and it was so cool...the dixie chicks won all the major categories...rock on girls...maybe george w. bush will not be too happy to see that you guys are winning and getting back the support of your fellow fans...

Been very busy mugging for all the tests that are coming up...did notes on social studies and geography and biology as well...my pen ran out of ink and popular is closed...damn it...finished chemistry wb and history wb already...will be doing geography later and will be doing maths sums...

I think that my blog is getting more and more boring...coz what i write is about daily life unless there are some spicy conflicts that arise somewhere...hehehe...and i guess that is what i am...a boring guy who is boring...well, not really...i can get crazy lots of time too...

And my new favourite song is NOT READY TO MAKE NICE-THE DIXIE CHICKS...i have loved this song for quite sometimes but after listening to them performing at the grammy's with this song, it really moved me...well, they kept saying that they do not regret what had happened and maybe that is similar to life now as a student if you know what i mean...people have the freedom of speech and if you don't like what i say or write, then f*** off...hehehe...

And i will support THE DIXIE CHICKS forever coz they are brave in what they believe in and any obstacles did not sway them from their goal...and they practice the freedom of speech...YEAH...

I am gonna make this a short one coz i wanna watch television...Firstly, i wanna wish all my chinese frens a happy lunar new year...OINK OINK...zhihui must be very happy since this is the year that she'll be looking forward to...no offence ok...and thanks to you guys that we got a long weekend...not exactly a long holiday but enough to sleep for the whole day without thinking of doing any homeworks...

But ironically, i did not sleep for the whole day today...i just took a nap before this for 2 hours and i am fully recharged...maybe 2 hours is a tad too long to be called a nap...hahaha...been busy mugging notes for the whole day...don't blame me coz common tests are just around the corner... so i have been a good doggie to study for the whole day...and my mum is not working so i just have to show her that i am a good doggie...study hard or make notes or else she will be nagging at me for the whole day...

I hate it when my mom compares me with my elder sister...come on, she is 11 years older than me...of course we have different study methods...i like to study till late at night while my sister likes to study early in the morning...and what we are studying are so different man...we took different subjects...and she's in normal academic last time but now she's in university...its like my mom always say that i cannot challenge my sister when it comes to studying...hello, i study for myself and not for you or for my sister...so why don't you just buzz off and let me do my thing and get the grades...is that fine by you?...

And i am so sleep my way today coz i am really tired...well that's not the reason actually...i don't wanna talk with my mother so i might as well get my beauty sleep than be talking with her...i seem to be very bad but you people have not seen the ugliest side of me yet...why can't my mom work overthe holidays so i can have some privacy to myself...i hate it when she's home coz she will always ask have you studied...i am seriously tired of that...life just does not revolve around studying ok...there are other stuff i can do like bitching and sleeping...

I am gonna end this entry here coz i am still very pissed off with my mom...stop comparing me with my sister alright!!!

My mum was home yesterday and so i did not blog...furthernore i was really tired so i just slept when i got back home at around 2 pm...and i slept until 8 pm coz my father woke me up...maybe he thought i was dead already...muahahaha...had a flu the whole night and could not sleep well...woke up at 2 am coz my father was going to the toilet and i saw the kitchen light on...woke up early this morning because of the smoke outside...but nevermind...

Yesterday was the chinese new year celebration and i was not paying attention to it...was half-dead so i was just there dreaming away...was supposed to go home at 12 pm but they changed it to 12.15 pm...f***...waste my time only...then after that was crossing the road and so was talking to Yong Guang...just found out that he lived at street 22 which was my old house address...his block is 278 while my old block was 287...i think now quite a number of ngee ann students live there...i think shun zi also live there...tan an also(pardon me if i got the spelling wrong)...

I brought all my books from under my desk to study over the long weekend...i think its very extra but i need to study or else you guys will not bee seeing me in sec 3 express class...muahaha...and i cannot wait for ugly betty to air in singapore...as well as heroes...i mean in channel 5 coz my mum canceled the cabel channel quite some time back...

Grace's birthday is coming up as well as Zhafran's birthday...maybe i will get something for them but i am not sure what to get...i think i really need another x-ray on my knee coz it still hurts when i try to exert force on it...especially during PE...and it was not because of the fall i had during the sec 3 camp...it was because i stretched the ligament before the camp...

Debate Championship is put on whole for the CNY celebrations and will continue in march...will be having lots and lots of common tests following the school reopening and then after that are more stress coming up...i was thinking of buying the chemistry notes book taht is published under the same publisher as the 10 year series...on that note, i can now pay more attention in class since we are moving seats every month...and i can understand better of what mrs teh is teaching...

And just found out that mrs teh stay in sengkang...in anchorvale(-.- if its wrong) to be exact...near nan chiau school...so to all my chinese friends, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR...and have a prosperous new year ahead of all you guys...

Today was like uber fun...classes were ok and there were 2 tests...biology was alright but a.maths was bullshit...think i am gonna fail a.maths...i so need a remedial class for it...i prefer surds than indices but both sux anyways...and at geography class, farah, izzati, benjamin, me, kelly, angeline, adeline and cuo yi were all laughing coz adeline saw ms lee's armpit hair sticking out...and she said there were a lot of it...GROSS...guess she did not shave it...

Then after school we were all supposed to do cme project but farah cannot make it...so me, izzati, angeline, adeline, kelly, cuo yi and benji went to bedok interchange food court to do our research on our food trail...in the end, we bought lots and lots of food...there were nasi lemak, mee soto, mee rebus, goreng pisang, fish n chips, char kway teow, prawn mee, triangular shape dumplings, teh tarik, chendol and iced soursop...we spend like $35 on all the food...but none of us finished any of our food coz we were all too full...it was like a buffet of food that was in front of us...and we sat at the table for a long long time...

Then after that we went to Bedok library that was near...it was super cool...at the children's book section, there were rockets and stuff...really really nice...we did our proposal and our poster and our food trail...then when we finished doing it, we took pictures of each other and modified it to look ugly but at the same time cute...and we were so loud that the librarian came to tell to keep our voice down...then we went to park but did not sit there...and i needed to go tuition so we all went home...kelly waited for her father to pick her up...adeline and izzati took the mrt to pasir ris...benji and angeline took 69 home and i think cuo yi also took the same bus... i took 25 and it was quite fast...so it was my first time taking it...and i was only 10 mins late for my tuition...at the bedok interchange, angeline wanted to buy a drink but she accidentally dropped a yakult and decided to pay for it even thought the shopkeeper did not see it...how noble is she...

Of course the day was far more exciting than what i had written so seriously, today was so so much fun...and i think i will be uploading some pictures soon...if angeline finally upload the "alien" pictures of us...so byebye...

Oh my goodness...i have like really need to buck up on my studies...and i eventually passed my e.maths test...i thought i have already failed it...turn out to be that i passed...then when i looked at my mistakes, i was so darn angry with myself...i thought the paper was difficult but after looking what went wrong, turn out to be minor mistakes...first of all, i copied the question wrongly and that was why i could not solve some of the problems...then i did not put a negative sign in front of an equation...then after that, i just found out that i am blind for not multiplying properly the sum...if not, i could have at least scored 15 marks and got A1...yes, i calculated my mistakes and what it costs me...

BIOLOGY TEST: 15 FEBRUARY 2007
SOCIAL STUDIES TEST: 14 FEBRUARY 2007
ENGLISH COMPOSITION TEST: 14 FEBRUARY 2007
A. MATHS TEST: 15 FEBRUARY 2007

And i am like having 2 tests each day...school is totally killing me...i really do not even have the time to go out to movies or go to any mall...i also realised about my daily routine...after school, go home, on my laptop, do homework, blog, watch 30 mins of television and then go to sleep...that is like my daily routine since the start of sec 3...and at the rate that i am going, i think i will have no life and be a sadistic teenager...and i totally want to avoid them...

Tomorrow is like Valentine's Day...and for higher malay just now, cikgu julinda was absent and mdm noor was relieving her...then she told nabilah and farah that it is not allowed or whatsoever to celebrate valentine's...coz she said it was "haram"...guess so but whatever...well valentine's is not just about lovers but also about friendships...so to all MY FRIENDS...happy valentine's day...to all MY FRIENDS who have lovers, celebrate it well guys...and to the rest, -.-\\\

Now back to reality and that is to be doing my homework and revise for my tests...and so bye bye...

Oh my god...it has been a week since i have last blogged and i am slaaping myself for that...been very busy with all the stuff about school and so on and so for that i did not find the time to even blog...hmm, tests are all coming soon and common tests are just weeks away...i have been trying very very hard to study but i am just so exhausted that i usually go to sleep after doing my homeworks and as such, i did not find the time to revise my work...

Well, we had the first round of the Julia Gabriel Debating Championship at Monfort Secondary and our team won against Chestnut Drive Secondary School...my god, what a relieve coz i was juz like god damn nervous before my speech even began...i was talking so damn fast its as if i was running for my life...at first, i was taken aback at how the rival team poised themselves but then their speech started to crumble...the first speaker was a vietnamese and i could not catch some of the words that he said out...i think i did alright for my first speech but when it comes to the impromptu reply speech, my mind just completely went blank...and i was like pausing and pausing lots of time...now over with that...

My results for this year's test are all satisfactory and not excellent...i am like getting a B average for my subjects where i should be getting A's...not trying to sound proud or what but i just feel i need to buck up in my studies again...i do not think i can take sec 3 life slowly and in a carefree way coz i am totally freaking out right now...and come to think of it, i must be extra studious and do my revisions...and no more late nights watching tv shows...

And for my grades...i really need to work hard to pull it off this year...and i do not want to be far behind lagging the whole class...even though i am not...no pun intended...

TRAINERS: aza(R1),amat(R1),yana(R2),azi(R2),shasha/aqasha(R3),hairul(R3),farah(R4),*Q*(C1),anik(I1)...thats all i can remember of the trainers names...aza is fun and loud...amat is a bit here and there...yana is a bit sore throatish coz of her voice...azi is quite strict...aqasha is horny and fun...hairul is like a teapot...farah is nice and i shared my prawn crackers with her...*Q* is handsome according to farah and izzati...and anok is serious but fun...

3R3 CHEER:

Introduce yourself,
No way
Introduce yourself,
Okay
Shabuya, shasha, shabuya
Roll call

Our name is rojak
And we're the best
So when we rock it
You guys go
"WoOoOoOaAaHhH,,, its R3"

Shabuya, shasha, shabuya
Come on

We're from R3
And we're fantastic
And you guys know it
So just buzzzzzzzz off

MAKAN CHEER:

Good good
Yummy yummy
Yes i want
Yes i want
Teachers eat
Trainers eat
Everybody EAT EAT EAT

FRUIT CHEER:

Watermelon, watermelon
Banana, banana
Raisin raisin raisin,
Raisin raisin raisin,
Rambutan
Rambutan

Okay...i am back from the 3 day 2 night camp at pulau ubin and i am very very tired...i really enjoyed myself and the camp was so so much better than what i had expected before...the camp was on a separate part of the island, away from the town centre...there was a lagoon in the middle of the campsite and there were chalets and swimming pool and jacuzzi...and it was a beautiful scenery...and it is a pity that the whole class was not able to be there at the camp...

The first day, we were separated into tents and all 7 boys had to squeeze into 1 tent and it was squeezy but we managed to pull through both the nights...our tent collapsed in the day while we were doing activities during the day and we had to redo everything at night while everybody else was having their free time...we had a lot of things going on so it will be very long...

HIGH ELEMENTS: i think that this is the first station that our class went to after building our tents and it was super duper fun even though it was very scary...it may be about 2 or 3 storeys high and it was quite tiring to go up the steps if u do not have upper body strength...so i did it and it was very windy up there...i did the section where we had to cross a very wobbly wood ladder...but it was all worth it...

HIGH WALL: this is the one activity that i did not complete as i fell and hurt myself at my knee which have already been injured before the camp...i feel twice on my bum but the impact was ouch...i cried coz it was so painful...very embarrasing leh...sorry you guys for letting you guys down...my classmates were very concerned and cheered for me when i got back from the first aid room...i love you guys...

NIGHT WALK: i have been dreading the night walk all along but it was not as scary as i had imagined it to be...it was okay and was not so bad after all...we had to respect the nature okay...and we could see the person walking in front of us...but sadly, yong guang who went after me cannot see me as i was wearing a dark coloured shirt so he can't see me...and did not manage to see anything out of the norm...

Second day was okay and everyone did not sleep and were so noisy and i kept waking up from time to time, each time the wind blows...but nothing scary okay...it was squashy but it was ok...benjamin slept the most soundliest and he even snored...

RAFTING: i love this activity the most...everyone in our group worked together to make our raft and our raft was very solid...unfortunately, it was heavier at one side and me, shun zi, lee chuang, kenny and denise fell overboard and was wet all over...but this is what you people call experience and looking back, it was all quite hilarious and it added a bit of spice to our camp life...we were all also shouting coz its just for the heck of it...and we manage to get across the lagoon...even though we did not win, we had fun...congrats izzat and 3r4...no hard feelings...

ROCK CLIMBING/AB-SAILING: unfortunately, i did not get to try this because we had to give priority to those people who did not do the high elements...i did not mind doing this coz we have to give everyone a chance to try everything...the thing was quite high up so i was still quite scared...

UBIN EXPLORATION: this is oklah coz we did not have time so we did not walk far...but we still manage to look at the quarry and it was majestic/magnificent/wonderful/beautiful and everything nice and it was really an eye appetiser...

CAMPFIRE: this is fun and our group name is rojak...we did a cheer and a dance and it was fun going up and performing in front...we were all very sporting so i love this class man...then we were under 'Q' and he was very loud...

Apparently, i am tired saying about everything but i will be doing all the chees in the next post...till next time, i still hate you bitch...