I am losing myself...seriously i am...i am losing myself...losing myself in those books...losing myself in projects...losing myself in stress...losing myself in everything i do...i lost my touch...my god am i losing myself...i may just be suicidal...well, pressure sucks and it is taking a toll on me...i have no life anymore...thanks to growing up in singapore...i need to get away...maybe in december...my mother better allow me to visit my sister again or else i will bitch and whine about it...if not, maybe i can stay at home alone and my parents go there...ithink my dad have realized that my sis wants to take permanent residency there in australia...hmms i am happy for her...but it is actually to my advantageous point too...yippee


So, been chatting with Fatin, my best friend in bitching...seriously we're the best...and talk and talk...and reuben aka mr ng aka debate coach aka school teacher aka mr P chat with me...lolz...so did english project with the rest...well it was me doing with very little inmput from the rest...playing games...-.-...and i am damned tired...failed e.maths test...no surprise...dying in my bed tonight...high possiblity...slitting myself...love to...killing another person...look forward too...


okay, what if tomorrow never comes...would u be alone or be with someone...would u die and go to heaven or live int his world forever...would u love someone whom you hate whom you love and whom you hate agin...would you haunt thise who ain't satisfied with you...i wanna go...but i wanna go there...


Its a very emo post...may not make sense to some...and i am changing rapidly...i ain't sure if this is the way...):

Labels: emo, random