Basically, 3 months have passed since my life was free from the burden of the O LEVELS. So, I guess that explains the lack of functional activity at this blog, except if you count the spams at the tagboard. Since it's going to be a long weekend this week, I might as well revamp this whole blog. As one says, "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy".

Sounds familiar?

I've lost a tiny bit of hope in getting th A1 for Geography already. The hope is diminishing with every page that I flip in the textbook. I could nit-pick the information that I've left out from the essays and it's killing me. Yah, yah, don't cry over spilt milk. But hey, don't blame me for taking charge of my future. I want to go to a junior college god-dammit.

The whole feeling and ambience of the big examination just does not settle in me at all. That adrenaline rush came and went on the first day after the chemistry paper. So it's safe to say that once you're head on with challenges, you're just going to pull through it no matter what. Maybe that's what I'm telling myself to believe in at this moment. The hope may be diminishing but i sure as hell hope that there is going to be bright light at the end of the tunnel.

I'm not sure how am I going to handle things if they don't go my way. I've basically had things the way that I'd wanted since young. Except maybe which family I should have been borned in but that's beside the point. Will i take it in my stride or will I just crash and burn? My sister said that I may have the probability to crash and burn. Believe it when I say that that's the first real conversation that I've had with my sister in 4 years - about MY FAILURE. It must have delighted her to finally be able to get into her "big-sister role" if there is such a designation.

Anyhows, my first entry back into the blogging realm and I've gone all gloomy. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Like I said, I DON'T CARE!